Tagged: senior year

5 ways I look back on my personal growth

IMG_5655.jpgQuarterly playlists

These songs comprise my musical identity and the personal journey I’ve taken during my time at Northwestern. The songs I screamed and danced along to at concerts, listened to on my 30-minute walk to class, woke up to in my morning Snapchats (if you know, you know)…Making these playlists is one of my favorite traditions. Although the tracks don’t coordinate with the seasons at all, the playlists bring me back to all of the great times I’ve had so far.

Some favorites:
Fall 2015
Summer 2016
Winter 2016
Spring 2016
(Winter 2017 is linked at the bottom)

My makeup habits

I’ve gone from wearing makeup everyday (freshman year) to wearing it maybe once or twice a week, when I go out. Frankly, I’m too lazy to wear it more than that. I’ve realized that no one really cares what I look like in class – at least, I sure as hell don’t. I used to think about specific products and looks a lot, but these days I barely give it a thought. I still love getting ready to go out, though. I see makeup as a special routine for when the occasion is right.

The evolution of my blog(s)

When I was in high school, Never Stationary was a machine that churned out regular blog posts multiple times a week. I strove to boost stats, maintain traditions like Monthly Favorites, Maddy’s Mr. Moist Presents, This Kid I Know (I recently stopped doing these a few months ago) and regular reflections of my college experiences.

These days, my writing is a lot more experimental and project-based. I only really post when I actually have something to say. I’ve ventured into more musical content, published interviews and created resources like the EDM calendar.

I seem to have prioritized everything else – class, relationships, and my professional life – over my blogs, but it’s still a part of me. I don’t see myself giving up on it at this point. In fact, I’m just waiting until I have an actual job to act on any of this, but I still have so many ideas in my head about different things I want to try out with my blogs.

Cat the Critic has also stagnated, but when my schedule has more free time, I promise I will throw myself back into it!

My interests and hobbies

Things that have stayed constant:

  • cooking/eating out
  • music
  • writing

Things that have popped up randomly:

  • mixing
  • video editing
  • marketing for alcohol brands (what?)


Especially when I talk to people who have known me for a really long time (like Eileen, or Navin), I ask others, and others ask me: Do you feel like you’ve changed a lot since coming to college?

I went from the super outgoing freshman girl – eager to meet everyone, up for anything, wanting to try new things – to the more frugal, more reserved person that I am today. I still like to go out, but I like to pick my battles.

Thinking back, I had no clue how sucked into the Chicago music scene I would become. I’m also not as naive as I used to be, and I know how to have better conversations with myself, my friends and strangers. Even these days, I still meet some super cool people in my community, mostly friends of friends (hi Joanna and Eunice).

I’m still pretty addicted to coffee, but I don’t wear cat shirts everyday like I used to.

My sister’s last first day of high school

Seven Final Thoughts about Senior Year (Graduation Edition)


One final blog post about senior year and graduating, I promise.

1) I think I have finally figured out why the college process can induce so much stress. The essence of college admissions is comparison, the root of all unhappiness.

Without comparing students to one another, colleges wouldn’t be able to coherently choose candidates for admission, and we know that.

We would never be dissatisfied with our own accomplishments if we didn’t look around and see what others have done with their lives.

I think my college is fantastic, but when I remember that I have friends going to Harvard, I can’t help but feel a bit petty compared to others.

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My Debate Career Is Over

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I started debate in 8th grade, but my mom was actually the one who pushed me to join. I wanted to quit before freshman year but I was convinced by one of my friends to stay a little longer; ironically, she quit before her sophomore year, but I’m still here.

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My second semester senior bucket list


But always make time to admire the coffee and cream as they swirl around, doing the tango in your mug.

In prioritized order:

1. Go to a poetry slam

2. Perform in our school’s talent show – this I have put off for 7 semesters

3. Start exercising regularly

4. Run a marathon

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You are not alone: a monologue about college decisions


People are finding out about their colleges and

on one hand, I am so happy for them.

But at the same time, I want to rip my hair out

Because I have hallucinated 6 times today

Cruelly rejected myself 3 times and

Twice ecstatically accepted myself and

Once cold-bloodedly deferred myself.

Tomorrow seems to be a path with two forks in the road

leading in opposite directions.

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A pep talk for your December

It’s the weekend after Thanksgiving, and the beginning of December. More importantly, this is YOUR December. Can you believe that we only have one more month until 2014? Do you remember the resolutions that you made for this year? Are we at all closer to our goals?

No matter, because December is a special time of year.

Students, this is the time where winter break is fast approaching and you can almost imagine yourself sprawled out on your couch with food, watching TV, but with one last, minor hurdle to overcome: exams…

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